Approaching.....soON

As I sat down quietly in my office doing OT, something struck my mind once again. That is before I realized it, the Standard Chartered Marathon is on this sunday. Though I will only be running for 10km, it's still going to be a tedious process for me. Especially when I had not been running for the past 1 mth or is it 2 mth? Why do people only regret when they reach the end of their "deadlines"? Why can't they just do the necessay preparation when they have the time?
Why Do I always have to regret at tis point of time?
Let just pray that by faith we can survive this run on sunday once again. (always testing water!!) Should be no problem since we managed to clear 12km the previous time......I hope. Haha!! That's it for now as I start to pack up to go home.

Surprise Birthday Sprung

Our cell group was held at Pasir Ris Beach on sat as we guys were having our retreat at the chalet on fri nite. The weather looked like a heavy downpour was on its way,but by our faith, we managed to hold the rain back. What a miracle!! This showed that if we had enough faith, no obstacles or difficulties can overcome us. It is only our own fear that is preventing us from achieving the results that we want or better still, we do not dare to ask for it.
Before lao-er came, the rest of us were discussing how to celebrate her birthday. Finally, Bel decided to give to her hse at midnight to give her a surprise. Time passed by slowly and the group of us separated to do our own things before gathering back at lao-er's void deck.
By the anointed time, only five "warriors" that were still alive managed to turn up. The five includes CK, Bel, Web, S and of course me. The rest of the group had been defeated either by the sleep or fever monsters. I think web and I were almost half'dead or half-alive at that point of time. Though the group was small in number, but we remained high in spirits. (I think) The original plan was to sing "You ask how deeply I love You" instead of birthday song. However, due to fear that the building might collapse, we decide to abort this plan and stick to birthday song instead.
M was surprised to see the group of us there with cake and flowers though she had seen thru S's white lies. (Need to think of better strategy nxt time) The next 1 and 1.5 hrs was spent flipping thru old photos in M'S room. We saw many funny photos including how 'fat' and messy hairstyle of S. One important thing Web and I learnt was how aggressive the girls can be when they anxiously wanted something. Two girls excluding M (let's not reveal the names) sprunged onto Web and me which caught the both of us unawares. They roughly grabbed our hands....etc....until their goals were achieved. Poor Web was even injured during the process as the girls were not gentle enough. Dun think too much lah...wat the girls wat was only to see the photos that web and I had laughed abt them.
By the time we left M's hse, CK was already lying down on the ground oredi. He could hardly kept his eyes open yet he still insist to send all of us back home. So glad to have him around!!
Lastly, wishing M (or Lao-er) a Happy 2? Birthday and may all her wishes and dreams come true in the days ahead.

Choices

Nothing is definite in this world. The only thing that would not change is change. Often we hope that things would remain the same forever, but reality had always proved us wrong. When situation arises, we are always thrown to fend for ourselves. What is it that we are holding on to? Faith? Faith of what? 100% sure? sure of what?
I had just come to my latest conclusion for now which is to live the way I desire without giving too much concern about what others would say. Why should my life be controlled by so many so-called rules? No way, I won't tolerate this type of thing to happen. At the same time, if we can choose not listen to what our parents say, at the more I should not give a heck about what others say as well. At the same time, if we had to relies on so-called sympathy given miserly by others, I would rather choose to live in seclusion with my family instead.
Though I may sound harsh, I would not quit. The only difference is that I would use my own way to do the things I feel is right rather on relying on others' standard. I can choose the lifestyle I desire whether is it rash or relax. As the song sing " It's my life.........."
I guess it's time to do some serious thinking about the way I live my life. I should not feel comprehend to do certain thing and I should learn to say no at time. When I feel the time is not right yet, I should hold on to my own value instead of being influenced by others. One should not do thing out to get recognition instead they should realize the purpose and reason behind it. Until the day I fully understand the meaning/purpose of my live, I would continue to just learn to relax and rest for the time being. Why be bothered by the opinions of others? If I can't even make myself happy, how can I ever hope to make others happy as well?
(Above are just some casual remarks/opinions of my own, you do not have to agree.)

Trials

Trials are basically to make people stronger provided they survive through it. Some time people may wonder why do difficult times fall on people instead of a smooth-sailing life instead? One of the reason which I feel is that the people who are stucked in a difficult situation are the people more blessed by the God. Funny rite!! The reason is bcoz these people are the group which perhap God feel that they have the ability to accomplish more than they expect hence trials are for them to overcome and to become a stronger and better person. Though I may think so this way, it's not a easy task to maintain a positive mindset when trial are thrown at your face. It's always easy said than done.
Had an interesting experience today to see a conversation between a old man and a young man. The old man was accusing the young man for not being committed in his work as he never showed up for work the day before. The young man accused the old man for not giving him enough notice about the time and date of the work place. Who is right and wrong in this place? I don't know!! Each of them had their own explanation and an argument arised.
What are the things I learnt from this incident? Many a time, conflict and argument arises bcoz the communication was not properly passed through. At the same time, we often tried to put our own ideas onto others without really considering whether is it really what others want or not. Some people are too committed in their work while some are simply too slack in it. Who is right and who is wrong? There is no definite answer at this point of time. Perhaps it is due to the difference in the character or environment. The best would be for each to do their own things till both parties had come to a common understanding of what is it that they really want in their lives. One should not try to force their ideas unto others or it might simply 'backfire' instead.
What is really that one is looking for in their lives? Their purpose may seemed so close and real at times, but when they wake up from their dreams, they realized that it's a dream after all. As for me, it's time to really plan and decide what I really want to accomplish instead of being swayed about by the situation and people around me. Think it's time to make some changes.

Week of Rest & Relax

This week had been a great and exciting week for me. Firstly, I'm on a one week leave. *Envy* rite!! I went on a Malaysia trip wif my mum and her frenz. We departed on sun nite ard 12plus. My mum's frenz drove us up to Genting. It took us only 4 hrs from tuas checkpoint to reach Genting. That is including stopping for a early breakfast along the way. He drove at abt 160-180 km per hr though the visibility level is quite low. Luckily I was asleep most of the time or perhap I would get a "heart attack" even b4 I arrived at Genting.
We arrived at Genting ard 5plus and hence it was too early for us to check into our room. The group of us decided to pay a visit to the tourists' attraction at Genting which is of course the "CASINO". It was my first time visiting a casino and I was quite excited and curious abt it. My mum and her frenz went to play jackpot while I 'shop' ard at the different stores available. I decided to try my luck at something called "Big or Small" which is basically 3 dices being tossed and the people guessing big or small. The minimum bet is RM10 which is quite a big amt at least to me. Luck was on my side (i think) and i managed to win abt RM200 plus. So easy to win ah....I thought.
For the next two days, our activities was basically centred ard casino and eating at different places. At the end of the first day, i had lost all that I had won. Without giving up hope, I decided to perserve and try my luck. By the end of the second day, I had managed to help Malaysia improve their economy by donating abt RM300 to their casino. Though this, God had managed to let me know that indeed His presence is wif me all the time. Though He may answer my prayer in getting a cab or even delaying the rain for a couple of hours, He will never bless me in terms of things/activities that the bible does not allow...and that includes gambling as well. What a painful lesson!! *sob sob*. What does this lesson teach us or perhap me? That is never to test God in the things we do and also it's more practical to work to earn our living instead of relying on gambling hoping that "Lady Luck" will smile on us. Hope this experience of me can serve as a warning to the people out there.
Gambling is addictive and it not only causes you to lose your hard-earned money, it also poses a hazard to your health.The whole place is full of smoke as there are simply too many people smoking ard you. At the same time, you do not get sufficient rest as you will get "hooked" to gambling. Not to forget the poor heart of ours, it get stressed regardless we win or lose. So hard on our poor HEART!!
The rest of my journey was travelling at KL and Batu Pahat and eating more than I should. Every meal was full of meat and we eat till we want to drop. As a result, my weight shoot up by another KG by the time I reached S'pore. Luckily I'm 'slim' or else.............

So Many First Time

This week had been a week of so much fun and enjoyment that my body is aching all over right now. So what did I do for the past two days? Let me recalled..............
3/11- Thur
After one night of Mambo, I really become "Mabo" the next day. I had to drag my tired body up at 8.15am to prepare to go to pastor D's hse. If I had lived abit further, I think I would juz go back to my dreamland instead.(not like somebody else who can chiong for weeks) At Pastor D's hse, I had to struggle with the "Sleepy Monster" in order to keep my eyes open. So Paiseh to Pastor D!!
Met up with S & CK for lunch at Causeway point at Mos burger. Happened to bump into Jaslyn whom I never met for months. still as pretty as before. Met up with the rest of the group of people at 1.10pm which include M, S, XJ, H,CK, Me & two of M's frenz. The 8 of us are ready to embark on the journey to JB. So exciting as it's the first time I'm going OVERSEAS with only my frenz and no parents or elders around. Later did I realize that it's not only my first but also M's first.
After we cleared the custom, the group of us proceed to City Square to have our lunch plus about 45min of shopping. I spent about 15min of my shopping time exploring the difference between the toilet of the second and fourth storey. The reason is that the toilet for the second floor charged 50 cents ringgit while the fourth floor charges only 20 cents ringgit. It's all in the same shopping centre yet there is such a large difference in the charges. (maybe the toilet at the second storey is made of gold)
We next went to 'Goldcut' (dun know the spelling) which is basically something like racing car along a small slope. It cost $30 ringgit for 10 minutes of driving. I had two rounds of it and the BEST part is that S overtook me at both tries. Can't believe this is happening, being overtake by a girl. But it's k since I overtook M & XJ.
After so much fun, we proceed to a hawker center to fill up our stomachs. We ordered 6 dishes which includes prawns and crayfish that cost us about 180 ringgit. Little did we know that the food is meant for us to be digested later.
Next we went to Holiday Inn cos M's frenz would like to buy some things which gives the 3 girls another opportunity to shop around. At 9 plus, we finally proceed on our journey back to S'pore which mark the beginning of our 2 hours 'nightmare'. We reached the JB's custom at around 9.30pm. I spent about 25min before I can reach the gateway. At the gateway, there was this auntie who is standing me that i think she must be feeling very cold. The reason is bcos she stick her entire body upon my back leaving no gaps in between. What a similar incident to the nite before where I was 'molested' by S & CK by their bums, now is my back being taken advantages by a auntie. Such a poor fate!!! As I approached the counter, i saw XJ beside me. As I tried to make space for XJ to come through, the auntie tried to disrupt it by using her hand to block. It made me so irritated that I simply refused to move or make way till she released her hand to let XJ pass through. Righteous prevailed once again.
When we finally passed through the custom, we decided to walk across the bridge from JB checkpoint to Woodland checkpoint. We were afraid that there might be a long jams due to the fact that many people might rush back to S'pore for work tomolo. What a grave mistake we made. The whole road was empty and three Buses 170 passed by us. Our eyes were all covered with tears as we walked through the pathway. It was a walk filled with emotional feelings and which taught us a lot of things. That is to be clever is good, but dun overdo it or u'll suffer the consequences urself. The question that popped up in my mind was " Did we missed the promised land?"
The next 20min or so was to walk briskly under the moonlight and a couple started to sing under the romantic scene. Finally, I took a cab back home when I reached S'pore.

04/11-Fri
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Went to work like a zombie due to the fact that I had too much enjoyment for the past two days. Work was all piled up and I need to rush like hell to make it on time for my ballroom dancing.
Had a hard time trying to catch up as I had missed the previous lesson bcoz of OT. We tried to practise the steps at Parkview Square for about 30min. Finally, the security guards could not take it anymore. He decided to chase us away as he said that there is camera and it's private property. I think the real reason is simply bcos he can't accept the fact that we are enjoying the dance while he had to work in his uniform. So sad for him!! So bad of me...:)
After lesson, proceed to coffee bean to have some drinks before making our ways home.

05/11- Sat
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Met up with E to go down to Bugis for J's mother funeral. GQ was there also. It was a catholic funeral, seemed it's the first time that I attend a catholic funeral. The atmosphere was solemn and sadness was surrounding the air around me. It prompted me to think about what kind of funeral would I want in future. I suppose my wake will be filled with laughter and joy as I would like my frenz to dance and sing at my wake instead of crying. Hopefully I can video myself and the last sentence would be " The most important thing is to be HAPPY".
Now I just pray for J to be strong and courageous for the days ahead. Hopefully she can grow to be a stronger and joyful gal & prettier each day too.
Now I tink it's time for me to go back to work............

Party At Zouk

02/11
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6-10pm:
I was doing OT at my workplace due to all the holidays in-between the week. Planned to go Checkers wif my colleagues later. We left office at 8 plus to fetch HY from Republic Plaza. The four of us had our dinner at Checkers which includes David, Hua Ying and Jiayi. The food was not really that fantastic but nevertherless, it was not a bad experience after all.

10pm-2am:
Met up wif S to take a cab down to Zouk to look for Ck. I was quite excited as it's the first time I'm going to Zouk. Though I had heard about it from many of my frenz and colleagues, I never had the chance to visit it till today. When S & I reached the entrance, there was already a very LONG queue outside. It seemed like many people are queuing to buy 'Hello Kitty'.....I'm still in my dream. Somehow, S & I managed to find our way in and finally reconciled wif Ck. It was quite a tough and tedious process as many people are simply pushing and forcing their ways in (including S and me). By the time we reached the dance floor, not much space was left for us to dance except perhaps the space sufficient for our feets to stand. Though many had said that there are many pretty girls to see, but I felt that I simply do not have much mood to look at girls. The reason is either I had grown too "OLD" or perhap they are too young. Just not my cup of tea!!! What to do...just enjoy the music loh....hahaha!!
Dancing at the floor was by no mean a easy task as the space is so small and crowded that not to said I won't be able to dance Lindy or waltz, it's difficult even to move about without hitting someone over.
"Oh my God!! Why am I here!! " This was the favourite question which S & I would ask one another. As I continue to stand in awe at the dance floor, many thoughts flew through my mind. Why are so many people willing to splurge so much money just to stand in the middle of nowhere to dance or perhap shake their bodies. Are they really enjoying the music, girls, drinks or what is it they are really looking for in their lives? I don't really understand what is it the people are enjoying as perhaps I'm a person who would rather ROC at one corner in my own world.
Of course, I enjoyed the companion of being in the midst of my frenz. Dancing wif Ck and S was very fun as both of them were almost using their bums to 'molest ' me. Must send them to deliverance class sooooN. We left Zouk at around 2pm and Ck was so kind as to send me home. S on the other hand is still a 'young kid' who can't keep still at home and she continue to enjoy her nite with her other frenz.......(see nxt time hw S going to control her kids...haha!!)
As for me, I am writing this story of mine at 3 plus in the morning when I'm should be sleeping. How am I going to wake in the morning for the meeting with Pastor David tomolo? "Oh my God!! Why am I here!! "