Saturday, July 29, 2006

Feelings

Finished my last mth-end closing at my current company last nite which lasted till 3am in the morning. Mixed feelings of joy & sadness and anticipating what lies ahead in the future. Been quite free for the past few days which gave me some time to think what's going on in my life.
People are never satisfied with what they have and forever complain, complain and still complain. So do they really know what they want in their lives ?Are they enjoying every moment of their lives or simply wasting their lives away?
Many want to change but not many are willing to take the risks that come with the changes. Are we too comfortable with our lifestyles or is the environment that made us the way we are? So many questions that left unanswered and yet, we can only look towards the future for hope.
Is what we see really the truth or is it simply the surface that is being shown?
Quiet moment are spent alone waiting for the chosen one to appear to show the truth and the way. Are humans always so fragile or is it meant for us to be this way? It is not good for man to be alone but even worse still, for two to be together when the time is not right. People can choose to drool themselves in work all their lives and only to realize that their prime was spent on meaningless things which is not important. Better start to treasure the ones that are precious to us now before the time has passed.
Faith is to believe what is to come and to continue to trust, but many a times, are we really convinced in what we preach? Saying is easy but doing is difficult. How can we convince others if even our faith in what we believe is not strong? Conviction will only come when we truly believe and therefore we will execute the actions with drive and not feeling weary or tired even when the going get tough.
It's good for man to be alone at times to reflect on the current lifestyle and to see where they stand at this point of time. Do not feel envious of what others have but rather let's focus on what we have and what is to come. The future lies in our hands and happiness has to be fight for at times. Joy come from within the heart and no one can take it away from us without our permission. Let continue to look forward to every new days ahead and do our every best in the things we do!! Jia You........!!!

Monday, July 24, 2006

Rejoice!!

Back from Malaysia from a birthday dinner where I saw many uncles and aunties and the same old question popped up again. Yo!! So when's ur wedding followed by do u have any gf.......etc? Haha!! Told them that it's coming soooN.
Anyway, the week had been quite "blessed" as I managed to meet up wif many friends including Pris on fri. Even though things cropped up here and there, I'm still happy with how things had worked for me for the past few weeks.
However, the atmosphere of sadness seem to be ard me recently. As many people are suffering from hurts and pains from various reasons, what I can do for them is simply to lend a listening ear and hope that things can turn out better for them. Dissappointment can come in many ways and that's the way life is designed. Without dissappointment, how can we appreciate the goodness and sweetness of life when it come along? Let everyone of us continue to fight this battles in our lives and if we were to continue trying, we would definitely achieve victory and success one day.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

It's Only A Dream

Being alone in the office early gave me some free time to sort out my thoughts. It's kind of weird feeling to leave the company soon and going to a new place to start all over again. Many people had gave their opinions and blessings but utimately, it's ME who's going to face the new challenges ahead. Had dinner wif s yesterday and talked abit on our dreams and goals in life. God had been gracious to me all this while and most of the goals for Year 2006 had been fulfilled. Getting a job in the city area and getting the pay I had wanted for this year.........but somehow or rather, the feeling of achieving all this do not really made me more happy than I expected.
Am I too ambitious or do humans never feel satisfied with what they have? We always want more & more without really stopping down to look at the things ard us or appreciating what we have. A strange thought crossed my mind this morning, what if all this is only a dream? One of these day, I will wake up from this dream and realize that all this is only false and not real. I used to have this feeling when I was young that one day, I will wake up and find myself in another world, waking up from a coma. Maybe, it's real after all that when Paul(nt sure?) said that we were aliens in this world and everything is just a illusion. We will go back to heaven and reunited with our families and there will be joy and happiness all over...........
Anyway, looking forward to SSG tomolo and hopefully more friends will turn up. That's all for now.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Who is First?

Saturday was spent singing ktv wif sijia, shiyun and sharon. (basically the 3 'S') Sat nite was at web's place playing mahjong and talking rumours abt people. The journey back from S's place to home was praying to God as the taxi driver seem to be rushing for time and I still have a lot of things to be accomplish yet.
Sunday service was good as usual and there was the donations for Girls Bridgate today. One of the bros donated quite a sum of money for GB's donation and the best part was that he had done all this in secret. He had not made a big fuzz or even told anyone of us abt this unlike some people (ie. me?) who will always want to be in the limelight of the news. Though this incident, it only showed me what a humble bro I have among me.
One thought that crossed my mind was what sean had shared before. The impt thing is to put God in the first place, followed by Others and finally Myself. But it always easier to say than done. How many of us had always plan for ourselves in terms of career, relationship, pleasure or even our image? Had we really put God as the first priority in our lives? How difficult it is for many of us to change from letting God be the first rather than Myself?
Nevertherless, afternoon was good as 5 of us (eg,ck,web,cs & me) spent a few hours "upgrading" ourselves in the pool. Many views was exchanged once again regarding our future "partners'. Haha!! I had concluded that the demand is increasing while the supply is decreasing all the time hence perhap I shall go out once again to expand my circle of friends. Let me think abt it.......:)

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Season of Changes

Time had come once again for me to explore another new platform of my life. It's a tough decision to make but sometimes, a man has to do what a man has to do. The letter was passed and decision was made. There is no turning back at this time. It take faith to trust in the Lord to walk into a new land where everything has to start all over again.
Friday was originally to go out with yun for some shopping but before we knew it, the group turned out to be bigger and bigger than we except. Haha!! yun brought wm who in turn bring sijia and sijia brought henry while I brought web & mango, and finally S sms me who herself called along adrian. The small outing finally turned out be such a "BIG" group to the surprise of many people.
Friday nite was once again spent at Emperor's cafe which was my 4th visits in two weeks. Even the shop assistant started to recognize me oredi. Games was played and many brain cells was killed. Why do I even had to strain my brain even on a friday nite?
Fussy Whattsy was played which made many people cracked their heads once again. One thing I would like to express here is that even if we dun know the answer to it, we shouldn't be too troubled or disturbed by it. The reason is that each people is unique in their own ways and every people different from one another. If everyone is the same, what would this world become into? (robot perhap!!) Sometimes we had to learn to take some things lightly and not be too engrossed into it while at the same time, people should also try to be sensitive to things ard them.
Ultimately, let's continue to do our best in the coming days ahead and put each of our unique talents into good use.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

My Own World

Time really flies without me knowing it. Got so many activities going on without having the time to blog all the memories down. Discovered another cafe to chat the whole afternoon away - called "The Emperor Magic Cafe" beside blue jazz cafe. (Even the name suit me so well...haha!!)
3 girls or ladies had celebrated their birthdays at Magic Wok in city hall last thur -06 July. Wm, xj & L had the good fortune of having many friends beside them which includes eg, ck, henry,cs, web, daniel, adrian, ron,mon, meryl, sijia, michelle, shiyun, bel, mango and most importantly, ME. Each of the bdae gal received a bouquet of flowers sent by web plus me. The three of them had better appreciate it or else. Also,watching the girls growing older every day made me glad that I'm still younger than them.
Friday nite was spent at Emperor Cafe with hua ying and jiayi while sat was singing ktv wif eg, gq, desmond, mango and sandy. Proceed again to Emperor cafe for SSG. (guess I muz have reali like the cafe alot...to go 3 times in a week) Met up wif HC and junyi on sat nite and we eat and drink from cafe to food court at raffles hospital followed by dessert at Bugis food court and finally Mcdonald. How come all my activities seem to be centred ard food and drinks only? ( so weird...hahaha!!)
One thing worth considering from all the chit-chat is that I had better change the way I behave or I would most likely end up being single all my life. Would that really be the case? Let me think abt it.....hmm.....seemed scary!! Anyway, I managed to meet up wif YY & HC last nite at Marina which was short but wonderful. It was nice to see the "ex-wife" still alive and kicking though abit tired and sleepy like a panda. That's all for now.......

Saturday, July 01, 2006

What a week

Juz scan thru my email and saw a email that made me laughed abit......a email sent out by a man who called himself the man with a big W on his chest. Must be affected by the Superman show too much.
If someone ask me what is my favourite now, I would surely answer "WORK". One thing I realized is that the most amt of time I spent my week doing is not watching tv, sleeping.......etc but simply work, work & still work. Working OT every day for the past one week had drained me of all my energy and thinking power. Broke another record this week which was to end my mth-end closing at 4am in the morning.
To make things worse was that the our team was called back to work on saturday as there is some issues going on with the new systems implemented. This simply mean that my friday nite was not able to enjoy myself throughly and I had to give sentosa outing a miss. Things is in a mess and my brain is not functioning that well right now.
Therefore my goal and aim right now is simply to make some plans for next friday night where I can R & R in a cosy environment and not having to go back to work next saturday. Before I forget, I got a treat from HY at Marche on friday night which made things slightly better. Haha!!