Desperate

Been a hectic and crazy work day yesterday and perhap today. System upgraded completed which simply mean piles and piles of work to be done. Reached office at 8am and to leave at 10pm was not really a pleasant EXPERIENCE.
Had a interesting conservation with P where she want to introduce her colleague to me. Reason being very simple, she's scared I can't accomplish my 2 years plan. Thanks for your kindness, but not that DESPERATE at this point of time. Maybe, I said maybe, in 3-4 years time then I'll be more anxious lah. Haha!! (Though abit tempted to accept the offer!!)
Time to go back to work once again. Wonder what time I'll be able to leave work tonite since it's mth-end once again. Staying late seem to be the in-thing for my company where we simply do not have much lives other than OT all the way. Mood is getting more and more frustrated especially when I'm doing other people's work rather than my work. Try to be HAPPY!! Yah, since it's going to be a long weekend again. Let's hope things will turn for the better soon or else, it's time to make some changes......!!

How To Hear God's Voice

Attended "How to hear God's voice" seminar by Teresa on friday & sat. Had to play hide & seek with my supervisor on fri cos seems to have some last minute things that need to be settled. Managed to find my way out on time to go for the seminar.
Seminar on both days was both boring & interesting to me. There were times where I felt like dozing off but there were times of fun & enjoyment too. Realized that there are three ways God can communicate to us -seeing, hearing & sensing.
God likes to communicate to us but we had to learn to listen to Him. Seminar ended with a calling for people to submit their lives totally to God which many responded. Time is still not ripe for some of us as we had been taught to do/think in logical ways which make it hard for us to submit totally to God. Entering into a covenant with God & knowing that I will not be able to keep it is not what I want to do at this point of time. But fear not, for our God is a merciful and loving God which will never give up of us though we felt that we are not worthy at times. Continue to press on and spur one another on especially when the day are approaching near.
Having supper on both nights may not be such a great idea after all. Quite siong to the health and my pocket too. Felt that staying out late frequently may not be very such a great idea after all. Struggling with two mindsets between the christian thinking and earthly thinking. Need to sort out some issues before taking a step further.
Life is not mainly about working or playing, but rather a purpose which make a difference. Are we really clear of what our purpose in lives is all about? I'm constantly searching for it and hopefully will find it soon.

Life oh Life!!

Nothing interesting to share about but only some thoughts from the past few days. Helped out with some backstage for Easter and realized that it’s by no mean a simple job. Though only went for two days but oredi felt tired and weary at the end of the day. Had to hand it over to the people who had to rehearsal and help out for the past few mths. Saw many things happening behind the scene which I normally won’t have the opportunity to find out.
Went out with ck & web last nite to Blu Jazz once again for some catching up (though we meet more than once every week…hai). Had some beers and fries and spent most of the time gossiping and talking abt marriage, career, retirement etc. Oh yah!! Something seem to be missing this time? What is it? It’s the company of gals this time. Nvm then!! We can always have men’s nite anyway. It’s one of the rare occasion where I had a beer w/o gal beside me. Lucky ck & web!!
Stomach not feeling very well due to the recent eating & drinking. Need to watch my diet or else. Looking forward to the seminar this coming fri & sat. (Really? Hmm) Seem like a period of thinking and making decisions for many people. Hai….that’s life!! Back to work for the time being……….

Thinking.....

Having some headaches and feeling very tired now bcos of the late night out yesterday. Had a great time sitting by the beach wif mh, w & D (my colleague) till 2am talking craps last night. Looking through photos recalling the wonderful time last week. Reminded myself that it's time to come back to reality and to look forward for even a better trip soooN. (I hope!!)
Reflection of the trip:
Discovered many things that I'd not exposed to while in S'pore. The ways different people shop, their eating habits, their QT with God, the way they handle situations etc. Realized that though some may appear crazy at times, they do have their quiet side which is seldom known to others. It's encouraging to see how devoted they are to God even along the journey making full use of the time and resources they have.
Appearance is always deceiving and we never know what reali lies beneath till we peel away the outer cover. Therefore the trip had allowed me to see the true (hopefully) self of some of the people ard me and allowing me to understand them better. Also, I even had the opportunity of watching someone putting her full set of make-up in front of me. Haha!! Made me ponder over the time & effort that girls had to put in everyday to maintain their "images". No wonder girls need at least one hour to dress up before they can make their way out.
It's time to keep away all the memoirs of the journey and once again stepped on my new journey in BED rite now. Rainy day and a public holiday day make a great day for sleeping late.

Journey Part 3: Final Destination

Begin my day with a good breakfast and a cup of coffee. Feeling refreshed as if nothing can spoilt the calmness and peace that my heart is having from the short holiday. Realized that reality is always cruel and heartless as three hours of stressed work can made me felt like having a heart attack. (still alive & kicking at this point of time) Went for PM and ended the session with a great dinner and great companions (m,L,xj,bel,s & h) ard me. Watching everyone going off and finally when m stepped onto her bus leaving me alone at the bus stop, a feeling that I once experienced came over me. The feeling that s & i once experienced together during the last day of the journey......................
09/04- Sun
Woke up and had a good breakfast at the hotel. Before I forgot, I had oredi bought my second souvenir on sat which was PO CHAI PILLS for f as her stomach was not feeling very well due to the chilli crab etc. (again bought from 7-11)
H realized that his necklace was lost and we were about to lodge a report wif the hotel when f found it. (Thank God!!) Shopped ard Central Market where we split once again into 2 groups where one group went shopping and the other group went into a cafe to have some bread & coffee. Make a guess which group was I in?
Developed our photos as it was much cheaper compared to S'pore and it was the first time my photos was developed even before I returned home. Bought my third souvenir as S complained abt her nails which made me buy none other than a nail cutter. (How come all my souvenirs are meant for the uses of others ah!!)
Embarked on my journey back home at 3.10pm from the hotel but due to some issues, we finally stepped on our way back at 4.30pm. (we were sitting inside the bus all this while) S & I got the first seats which is behind the driver and she was complaining that it was not comfortable. Little did we expect to make such a great difference to our lives later.
S & i was quiet and not communicating wif one another as she had wanted to spend some quiet time on her own. S was listening to some sermons while I listened to my mp3. While S was reflecting & listening to God's words, I was trying to fall asleep due to some reasons. Never did I knew that S was thinking & struggling with the same issues that I'm facing at this point of my life. Haha!! Great minds think alike lah!!
At ard 5.30pm, S & I was discussing abt the trip when both of us realized that both had been trying to hold back the call of nature. It's been close to 3hrs since the journey while we had been struggling with this issues for the past 1.5hrs oredi.....hahaha!! Thank God we reached the break-point shortly after and by now, we finally realized the reason that God put both of us in the first seats. That was to let us rushed to the washroom at the shortest possible time. So regardless what situation we're in, God always has the best plan for us. Won't you agree?
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By now, you all shld knew what feelings I'm having while sending m off. The feeling of mother nature calling out to me once again. OMG!! How come it's always like that ah!!

Journey Part 2

Woke up at 12pm this morning and went for a swim at w's place. Still feeling very tired and started to feel the stress of going back to work once again tomolo. Sian ah!! Made me feel like going for another holiday soon. Anyway, let me recalled what happened at the trip last week.
08/04- Sat
Took the cable car down to catch the bus to KL. The cable car took about 15min and it was yet another terrifying experience for me. Haven took a cable car for many years and it does not seem very stable to me.
Managed to visit the Twin tower and KLCC before the four of us took a cab to Chinatown. Had some disputes with the cab driver as some of us felt the driver was making a long detour. Luckily I managed to solve the issue without much effort. Went shopping around with the rest of them and watching the rest getting some clothes, shoes etc.
Split up into 2 groups as f & h continued on wif their shopping while s & i went to get some food for ourselves. Suddenly the rain came pouring down and I had to go to buy my first "souvenir" of my trip. It's none other than the small umbrella from 7-11. The walk back to the hotel was indeed very "romantic" as S put her hand on my shoulder for some part of the journey. How romantic rite!! Strolling in the rain with one another. But wait a minute!! Her hand was resting on my shoulder but she was walking behind my back. (fact was that her shoes had no fiction and she oredi had a bad fall in Genting which caused her to be more cautious especially when walking up or down a slope.) Therefore while others were enjoying their stroll in the rain, I was like a uncle leading a "blind" daughter selling tissues on the road. (shld ask S to close her eyes and the 2 of us can make some money for the trip) Such a waste, haha!!
Had chilli crab for dinner and went for a walk ard the neighbourhood. Walked past the museum where the scenery was quite bright and beautiful at nite. Saw many polices along the way and was told that the security was not that safe. Got a scare and decided to spend the nite playing cards in the hotel room. End of 2nd nite.

Back Safe & Sound

Returned back from my 3D2N malaysia trip. Too many things happened along the way and there are simply too much thoughts to jot down. Think I will separate into 2 or 3 days to share about the interesting & "romantic" events that took place for the past 3 days.
07/04- Fri
Woke up early in the morning ard 5am to prepare my things & most importantly-- eat my breakfast. What is a morning going to be like without breakfast, won't you people agree? As I always say, every meal is equally important.
After a 7hrs ride from Golden Mile, the group of 4 of us (F, H, S & me) finally arrived at Genting. The whole group of us was quite taken aback when we checked into the room. Reason being very simple, it was better than we had expected. I had portrayed a very 'scary' and lousy image of the hotel to the rest of them before we arrived hence they had never expect to be able to see a neat and tidy room in front of their eyes.
Proceed for a quick lunch and we immediately went to the Outdoor Theme Park where we spent the next couple of hours. There are just so many 'first' times of my life that happened during the 3-4 hrs inside the Theme Park. I tried the Space Shot which is the machine that basically bring you up to abt 10 storeys high and suddenly fell down to the ground before you knew it. I would never be able to imagine myself trying this type of adventerous ride without the company of friends ard me. The only reason I went up to try is very simple, both S & F wanted to try the thrill of "jumping to their death". Since the girls had indicated the first move, there is no reason for me as a GUY to chicken out rite? (too much ego & pride lah!!)
As the machine reached its peak, many thoughts went through my mind during the 10-15 seconds on air. First of all, I was feeling abit scared & regrets about trying this ride. (too late to pull out oredi...hai!!) Secondly, I was considering whether I should keep my eyes open or shut. (so many spectators looking downstairs, would be quite paiseh to close my eyes) But before I knew it, the machine had just crashed downstair and i can feel my legs being flung upwards towards my head. Since I had conquered this Space Shot this time round, of course I would say it's "chicken feets" and nothing to be scared of lah....hahaha!! (except the fact that my legs was abit shaky for the next couple of minutes when we reached the floor)
Many other rides was tried as well but my next two most memorable rides were the Sungai Rejang Flume Ride (Water Speed Boat) and the Bumper Car. The Speed Boat was worth remembering for some reason of course. First, my partner sitting behind me was none other than S. (she had no other choice lah since F was wif H....hee!!) However, besides the partner that made the ride interesting, some other reason was that there are not much security measures provided for the passengers. The only grip that we have was only the metal grip inside the boat. So when the boat is going up-slope or going down-slope, we had better hold on tightly to the handle or we can go crashing backward/forward into the water. So what abt the people who had no strength to hold on to their body weight? (I dun know too!!)
The Bumper Car was interesting as I believed the four of us were one of the oldest bunch inside the ground. The rest were mainly primary sch kids having their share of funs while I was feeling abit paiseh to be in their midst. Think it's been at least 5 years since my last bumper ride. Who ask S & F to behave still like kids despite the facts they are not that young anymore!!
Think I will end here for now as I'm feeling abit tired and basically Theme Park was one of the highlight of our trip in Genting for the first day. Therefore, stay tuned for the continued espiode.......

Anticipation

Had not been blogging much due to the facts that my life is currently work, work and work!! When work got you hooked, you simply got no time and energy to go out and play too much. This partly explain why there is not much entries currently. Second reason I think is bcos my mind and body had entered into a "winter" mode that I rather stay at home to 'rot' than call people to go out.....hahaha!!
Nevertherless, I managed to squeeze time out to go ktv with wm, s, web, sean & adrian last sunday. The ktv was fun as usual especially as we teased wm for her upcoming singing competition on 22 Apr. Discussions was abt how to spend her prize money on ourselves even though the competition was still far away plus the result not out yet. Anyway, jia you wm!! U can do it.....we have faith in you...(i tink so?)
Life for this week is still work, work & work. However, I have something to look forward to which is my upcoming trip to Genting & KL tis fri. My mind plus body seriously need some break to recharge for the weeks ahead as more n more challenges come along my way. But I can foresee that the trip will definitely be filled with joys and laughter as f, h plus last but nt least s are my travelling partners tis time.
Hmm, this will be my first 'overseas' trip without my parents, teachers or elders etc since I was born. Hope everything will turn out fine for the 4 of us especially when I was supposed to plan the program. What a wise decision of the three of them to appoint a "newbies" to do this job. Can say this will be a blind man leading the blind!!! Anyway, we shall just wait and see what lies ahead lah. Shall not waste time worrying about things that had not happened yet but shall go back to my work for the time being.