Happiness In The Midst Of Darkness

Black Black Friday
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Can't go for my ballroom dancing for it's month-end closing this fri. Taken away one of the happiest activities for now in my whole week. So sad but can't do anything about it .....That's life!!
To make things worse, our work ended only close to midnight hence had to cancel the outing originally planned. Headed straight home to sleep. End of my friday night.

Sat
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Woke up close to 10 plus. Minger ard for a while before getting ready to go to work again. Almost want to become crazy due to lack of entertainment. Start to do some soul research. Is this the life I want? My health is deterioting and had not fully recovered from my cough and flu yet. Seem to have no time for anything else except work.........need to seriously think about it.
Read half of the book title " Choosing God's Best" while slacking at my work. Realized once again the difference between Happiness and Joy. Happiness is dependent on the surroundings and situations but Joy is in the heart regardless of the situation and surroundings. Though it's easy to read, but who can fully understand and execute it.
i was quite touched when S (my ballroom partner whom I should not named) smsed me around 6 plus that she missed me a lot. [seem to cut short abit here and there, but the meaning is still the same lah...I think] Thank God for not forgetting me in the midst of His busy schedule. Even touching was when S appeared in front of me with GQ & E (the newly couple) without me expecting it. The surprise brought some happiness into the boring working life of me. Praise the God despite the situation and continue to trust that He had prepare the BEST for me. Yapee!!

Birthday Gals & Guy

Happy Birthday to Faye(frenz), Celia(niece) and David(colleague)!!! Such a coincidence that all their birthdays happen to fall on the same day. I'm broke now due to all the presents and celebrations. Someone save me or such I say.....save my wallet!!
Went to KTV with faye, Hao, Sean, James & Meryl on mon nite. It was supposed to be a surprise for faye since I did not tell her that we're celebrating for her. Haha!! Her face was overwhelmed with joy and shock when J & M walked in with the cake. To spice up the atmosphere, we even picked two birthday songs for her to sing. But somehow, we can't reali catch the tune as it's kind of funny. Whatever lah, as I always say....Happy is the most important.
We enjoyed ourselves till 12plus before we made our moves home. We were all dead beat by the time we leaves the ktv room. S was so tired(enjoying the music) that he fell asleep toward the end. I had planned to leave him alone in the room to pick up the bill since he enjoyed so much. However, due to my kind nature, I decided to wake him up. Wat to do? Who ask me to be so kind-hearted rite!! Quite sure that there will be a few pandas tomolo.....someone saves the pandas!!

Eighteen Steps

HC, S, Web & Prince J2 went for their third ballroom lesson on fri. They were taught the complete "Legendary Eighteen Steps" of the slow waltz. It was fun and interesting, and all couples were enjoying every moments of it. S was Prince J2 newly promoted concubine due to the facts that he had enthroned G to E. Dancing with S was the most relaxing as they can communicate through their hearts. Haha!! Dancing with HC was the most graceful as she's too shy to look at J2 which somehow suit the theory of the dance.
Web was very good in catching the steps and made tremedous improvement compared to his first lesson. He's definitely good and No.2 due to the fact that the BEST is of course Prince J2 lah!! As Prince J2 had mentioned to many of his subjects........in his own world, there is only one that is always the best......that is of course J2 himself....hahahaha!!!!
After lesson, the four of them went to Parkview where they continue to enjoy their romantic night under the beautiful and dim moonlight. Their dance steps made the hearts of the many people who saw melt and thought "how come Richard Gele and Jennifer Lopez are in S'pore?".
What a moving and touching moments for the two girls who had the honour to dance with J2. How the girls wished that time would just stop at that moment and not let it slipped past their hands!!
What dreams would still come to an end no matter how hard they try!! The four of them continues their later part of their journey at Indochine with G, E & M. Now it's abt time for me to catch my own dream.

Finally.....Sick

It's been a hectic week since last week with many things happening at the same time. We always seemed to try our best to rush for more time to complete the things we want to accomplish. Same for me except God had finally decided to step in to interrupt and told me " Enough is enough, it's time to rest". How do I know? Of course I know, since I had fell sick and got myself a 2 days MC. Though it seem to be a good opportunity to rest, I can imagine the pile of works waiting for me when I return on fri. Who cares anyway!! Let's just take this two days to have a good rest and relax myself.

Let me recalled this morning when I went to the clinic beside my house. Though I had moved here for close to 5 years, I had never been to this clinic before. Another thing to take note is that I had never been to the doctor for the past few years as well. The reason I chose to go to see the doctor is probably to get a MC so that I can rest at home. I was the first patient in the clinic and was quite excited to se the doctor since it's been years I'll had seen one.

It was a female doctor and I got a shock when she told me my fever is close to 39.25 degrees which may be caused by some bacteria infection. No wonder I'll been feeling restless for the past few days. The doctor was very kind to give me a two days MC when I was expecting only one days. So lucky in a sense.

Rite now, I planned to go back to sleep for the time being before planning what to do for tomolo.........good nite to all my friends especially to people who are working rite now, heehee!!

Relationship- Love

My past one week was filled with unhappiness and sadness due to all the happenings ard me. First, my mum's worker husband passed away followed by G's grandfather. At least three friends of mine broke off with their bf and I had to work throughout the week etc..............
The week seem to be dull and grey with nothing interesting to hope for. The only happy thing was probably the ballroom dancing which sort of spiced up my mood.
Yesterday, I finally practised on my guitar once again on which I had missed the past two lessons due to the many excuses I gave myself. The feelings was better after a short break and the most incredible thing I done last nite was..................................to pick up the Bible and read it. Frankly speaking, I had not been reading it for the past couple of months (so paiseh) and it was great to be reading it again. One trend for me is that I always seem to turn to God for help whenever the going seem to tough for me or I feel really exhausted. Hopefully God will not mind this bad habit of mine. Must change but easier to say than to do it!!
Another book I read was my birthday's gift " Choosing God's best". It was about how to identify the correct partner that was meant for me instead of trying out different partners instead. Make me think a bit more especially when I have the mood. (my mentor must be crying nw..haha!!)
Talked to my colleague today and realized that she may go into another relationship soon after breaking up for less than 1 week. Worried for her as she might be hurting herself this way if she only looking for someone to accompany her or to fill up the empty gap in her heart. It's going to be unfair to both parties which will often end up in unhappiness instead. Is God using situation to speak to me again? Why do people continue in their acts even though they know it's wrong? Are we too emotional that we are often not rational enough to make the right decision.
Let's just hope that this week will be a better week for all of us. (Can't wait for friday to come)

Choice

Life is a interesting process where we are always facing tons of situation that requires us to make a choice. Sometimes the choice the decision we made may be not what we want personally but we will still make the same decision regardless of how many years passes by us.
At times we might want to blame God for giving us the power to make choice and why not simply give us one sraight path to walk instead? When there are only one way, we simply follow it and it would save us a lot of troubles and headaches at the same time.
Is that the truth? I don't know but I must say that the ability to make choice gave us the power to choose the way we want our lives to turn out instead of following the same pattern every day. It is bcos we do not know what lies ahead of us that make our lives more interesting. As we faces new challenges in our daily lives, we are to decide what is the more important thing in our lives that we want to treasure the most. Is it family, friends, career........?
For every individuals, we have a different answer to the same question. For me, I have to choose between work, families and friends and God. I had planned out my schedule for this week but sometimes, situations arises which forces me to change the original plan. It's kind of frustrating at times but I guessed God is simply using situation again to mould me into a stronger, better and most importantly, HANDSOME MAN!!! Haha!!
For this sat, hopefully my mum can get her friend to help out or I'll be faced once again whether to go for my own enjoyment or to help out instead. That's life and what can I do!!! Many years had passed but I'm always faced with the same situation to make the same type of choice!! Time to go back to work for nw....haha!!

Do U Believe in Fairies?

Do u believe in fairies? NO...was the answer G gave me. Perhaps she was dissappointed that her own "prince" was not able to accompany her to watch Peter Pan. That's life and not all things go the ways we want it to go. We had to face a period of difficult times before we can learn to appreciate the good thngs more....rite?
I do not believe in fairies myself too. But fear not, for there is definitely a God and there is also JOEL to come to the rescue plus his group of frenz....haha!! Little did G know that while she was 'suffering' all this while, a "evil" plot was being carried out slowly without her knowledge. Prince Charming J2 and his group of warriors which include ck, web & s had met up wif E and came up with a little surprise for this little pitiful G.
On the day of the concert, E appeared like a knight out of nowhere to accompany G to watch the concert together. G was overwhelmed with joy and once again, tears rolled down her face. (like watching a movie like that, who cares anywhere?)
So thereafter the knight E and maid G lived happily ever after while Prince Charming J2 continue with his new journey with his 3 wives and 7 concubines. That's all for now as it's time to go to sleep once again.

Spring

Went for my first Ballroom Dancing class last fri. Met up wif S, Web and HC at bugis for dinner before class commences. We even went to take neoprints as S had been very excited about it. Haha!! So old still behave like a kid!!
The class was very relaxed and enjoyable except I was always being 'scolded' by the instructor for being too 'bouncy' and not keeping my fingers closed. Guess it's the effects of too much Lindy. Muz change this bad habit ASAP!!
After class, the four of us even went to practice for a short while in front of Golden Landmark Hotel. S & Web were quite 'paiseh' as quite a number of people were looking and pointing at us as if we were "monkeys" running about. Who cares anyway? As long as......we're HAPPY.
Looking forward to this coming friday again while I'm slacking at work writing my blogs. Haha!!

Winter Times

Had been too lazy to do anything for the past one week. Feeling abit tired and worn-out though I had been cutting down on a lot of activities. Partly bcoz I'm feeling abit sick plus not really sure of what I want in my life once again. Sometime in life we would feel very energetic and charged up but of course there will be times where we feel lost and aimless.
I think my period of winter had come and it's time for me to retreat into my corner to rest for the moment. Even quite relunctant to go for lindy later in the evening and juz wan to go home to rest instead. Haha!! Hopefully the ballroom tomolo would be more motivating for me. Time to go back to work for now.

Surprise...Together!!!

Today is one of the special day that's worth remembering. My friend- E had come clean with the group of us about his relationship with G. Though we do not know how long they've been together, we must admit that they are indeed GOOD at keeping SECRET. They had managed to keep most of us in the dark for so long without us realizing that they'd been together.

K lah...stop making a fuss out of it. Right now, I would just like to wish them all the best in their future ahead. Also for the people around them to be mature enough to give them the support that they required. Stop pestering them you people, I would pester them myself. Haha!!!

So happy for the both of them as they're not getting younger anymore and it's finally time. W, J & I was so happy that we celebrated this occasion by hsving a whole spring chicken for dinner. Such loyal and supportive frenz where to find. Wishing them happinness and joy in their hearts as they continue the journey with God as their guidance.